Something I Never Had

Do you see me
Do you feel me like I feel you
Call your number,
I cannot get through
You don’t hear me
I don’t understand
When I reach out,
I don’t find your hand

Were they wasted words?
Did they mean a thing?
And all that precious time
But I still feel so in between

Someday I just keep pretending
You’ll stay
Dreaming of a different ending
I wanna hold on
But it hurts so bad
And I can’t keep something that I never had

I keep telling myself
Things can turn around with time
And if I wait it out, you could always change your mind
Like a fairy tale where it works out in the end
Can’t I close my eyes, have you lying here again
Then I come back down, then I fade back in
And then I realize it’s just what might have been

Someday I just keep pretending
That you’ll stay
Dreaming of a different ending
I wanna hold on
But it hurts so bad
And I can’t keep something that I never had

Am I a shadow on your wall
Am I anything at all, anything to you
Am I a secret that you keep
Do you dream me while you’re sleeping after all

Someday I just keep pretending
That you’ll stay
Dreaming of a different ending
I wanna hold on
But it hurts so bad
And I can’t keep something that I never had, that I never had
I wanna hold on
But it hurts so bad
And I can’t keep something that I never had

You don’t see me
You don’t feel me like I feel you